The wings of my butterfly shaped soul
Flutter mercilessly in vain
The sound of the death knell
The poignancy of the everlasting pain
Sweet surrender and an ending it longs
Like a moth to the flame
There is no denying this
There is no shame
Death is my poison
Suicide my orgasm
My whole body spasms
With the touch of your eyes
Do not believe these lies
Oh sweet death
Be mine…
I want your embrace
There is just the sublime fall from grace
Oh death…Oh death…
Be mine…
Death from this eternity in waiting
Waiting in the soulless purgatory
This disastrous love story
Is the sweet poison I crave
Life has fucked me hard
But I cannot discard
The thought of you
Are you standing before me?
I ask myself…
Did you leave?
Were you ever here?
Or were you in my mind?
In your eyes my soul I find
Did I wait forever?
Is this all an atrocious mistake?
When everything is at stake
Could I not have been more clever
To know this game makes us a loser
Has it already been that long
But I remember that song
An eternity has passed
I will not go out without a blast
Like the brilliance of a deadly quasar
This is the need of the hour
But you still remain inside of me
Like a soul wrenching ache
Don’t you see?
It’s not just my heart you break
When you deny and you’re filled with hesitation
You are the ghost of my creation
The sound of my incantations
Even in utter darkness
You shine like a trillion Suns
Why such aloofness?
I come undone
You are the tears that trickle down my cheeks
Am I too meek
To keep mourning the loss of inevitability
You are the constricted breath
Chocking me, strangling me
You are my asphyxiation
A wild desperation
You are my incarceration
My goddamn damnation
You are my sweet torment
Why are you so hellbent?
On destroying the sacredness
Of what we might have had
You are my bitter pleasure
And my absolute treasure
The robber of my soul
Be sure to play this role
To eternal oscillation
Of our existences
They become nothingness
As the void of emptiness
Dances around us
Through vast intergalactic distances
You are my dazzling sunshine
Deliver the sign to tell me you are here
As my psychedelic Jesus
You are my raging tempest
You are my perpetual melancholia
You are my abject paranoia
You are my tempest that blows asunder
You are my broken heart
Scattered into a million smithereens
You are my hallucination
You are my desperation
You are my absolution
You are my dream
You are my nightmare
You are all my memories
You are my wonderland
You are my matrix
You are my Sun and the Moon
You are my storm
As you rage inside of me
I have revolted against myself for you
Are you waiting for me?
Hear me call out to you
As Juliet to Romeo
As the poison turned her blue and cold
Much has been told
And now I am fed up
What will it be?
A cup of coffee or suicide?
I know I have laughed hysterically as I have cried
And now it’s time for the final goodbye.
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